Letting go has been the most commonly used phrase in my life. In our lives. Perhaps it may be easy for some than it is to others but I found myself letting go the hardest. I go back and forth with my thoughts for many, many days and without warning, I simply let go.
There’s still that glimmer of hope of wanting to be with somebody we know we can’t have. But that’s just life, that’s just me. I am still not ready and my heart is not settled. I am penning these down in hopes for you to understand my thought process. I have been putting a brave front whenever we speak.
The past week or so has been a little rough for me both mentally and emotionally. I am weak on the inside. Work hasn’t been nice on me either – it never was. It’s provoked my desire to be anti-social. I’m trying, but what I will never do is to give up. I don’t want to be defeated.
Hopefully there will be a turn of events in the weeks to come. I have been trying to tell you that I have been a little down but you paid no attention to it. So as much as I want you to be happy with your business and life, I want some sun to shine on me too.
Ed Sheeran put it so beautifully:
And before I blame someone else, I’ve got to save myself
And before I love someone else, I’ve got to love myself